I hate getting attached to someone, because i am afraid that one day, without any warning, they’ll just going to leave me. And every time it happens i feel so empty, lost and ask myself what’s wrong with me that they have to leave me, anyway. I am so attach with them that they’re already part of my immune system and my daily routine. That i can no longer live a day without seeing or talking to them. They are already the reason why i am smiling. But when the day comes, the day that i am afraid to come, the day that they have to leave you, that’s the time that there’s something in me that breaks into pieces. It feels like the world crashed down and everything went black. It hurts. It really hurts to be left behind. Especially if that person made a big impact in my life. But all i can do is to watch them walk away because i don’t want to be selfish. I have to give them the freedom that they want.
But that;s the ironic of life. There’s no permanent thing in this world except change. You should know that people come and go and you have to deal with that. They either make us happy or sad. You should know that the people that you loved has the tendency to change, that you’ll wake up one day you’ll be surprise that they’re no longer the person that you used to know. Some of them leave mark that is really hard to forget. Something that will lasts a lifetime. All you can do is to live your life everyday with those marks inside you from the person who left you. And their memories that keeps on replaying and haunts our spirits within. But always be thankful that you met those people, how they made you feel and all the experience and happy moments with them that you have to treasure. There’s a reason why it happened. There’s a purpose why they have to leave.
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